Podcast #3: Ahimsa in der Krise

Ich freue mich sehr, diese dritte Folge mit Dir teilen zu können, in der ich darüber rede

  • warum unsere Gedanken uns oft mehr schwächen als uns zu dienen
  • wie wir nicht hilfreiche Gedanken und Gefühle wahrnehmen können ohne sie zu bewerten
  • was Du tun kannst, um das Gedankenkarusell anzuhalten und wie du den Fokus ändern kannst
  • was das alles mit Yoga zu tun hat und was Ahimsa ist
  • wie Du diese Ausnahmesituation so gestalten kannst, dass Du die Erinnerung daran in einem positiven Licht sehen wirst
  • wie Du die Zeit jetzt nutzen kannst um Dein inneres Universum zu ergründen

Wenn Dir die Folge gefällt, freue ich mich riesig über eine Bewertung auf iTunes und schreib mir super gerne auf Instagram @magdalenaschmidnoerr was Dir gefallen hat und welche Fragen und Anregungen Du für eine der kommenden Podcastfolgen hast.

Gerne teile die Folge mit einem Menschen, der/die das auch hören sollte!

Und denk dran, den Podcast zu abonnieren, damit Du benachrichtigt wirst, sobald eine neue Folge live ist. 

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Selfcare Club auf YouTube

Der Selfcare Club ist das Kernstück unserer Community und “trifft” sich montags-freitags 7-7:30h live auf meinem Facebook bzw. Instagram Account. Wir widmen uns der Frage, wie wir gut durch die Krise kommen, wir atmen, wir wenden uns in geführten Innenschauen unserem inneren Universum und unserem Herzen zu, wir üben gemeinsam Yoga. Das alles ist kostenlos und es lohnt sich, auf diese Weise selbstbestimmt, dankbar, entspannt und früh in den Tag zu starten.

Du kannst aber auch die Videos später angucken und “nach”üben, entweder auf o.g. Accounts oder auf meinem YouTube-Kanal.

Ich freue mich auf Dich!

30x3Challenge is back!

Wir nutzen die Krise, die Fastenzeit und den April, um neue, nährende, hilfreiche, stärkende Gewohnheiten zu kultivieren!

Der #30x3Challenge ist ein vollkommen kostenloser Community Challenge – no strings attached! Wir unterstützen uns gegenseitig 30 Tage lang dabei, 3 neue Gewohnheiten in unser Leben zu bringen, die uns stärken und mental wie körperlich fit, gesund und geerdet halten. Denn gerade in dieser Krise müssen wir Teil der Lösung sein – und das sind wir v.a. wenn wir uns anbinden an unsere innere Ruhe, Liebe und Stärke.

30 Tage lang – 3 Routinen/Rituale:

30 Minuten täglich bewegen

30ml pro kg Körpergewicht Wasser trinken (das sind 2-3 Liter)

30 Minuten besinnen (meditieren, beten, schreiben, was Dein Ding ist…).

Am leichtesten lassen sich diese neuen Rituale von Bewegung und Besinnung gleich in der Früh einbauen: steh eine Stunde früher auf und widme diese wertvolle, schöpferische Zeit Dir selber.

Wir unterstützen uns gegenseitig mit Tipps und Tricks und sind uns gegenseitig der Accountability Circle, der motiviert dranzubleiben oder immer wieder miteinzusteigen.

Montag-Freitag biete ich in diesem Zusammenhang den Selfcare Club auf meinen Facebook und Instagram-Seiten an. Ich freue mich sehr, wenn Du live um 7-7:30 Uhr dazukommst! Sonst kannst Du Aufzeichnungen anschauen, auch auf meinem YouTube Kanal.

Enjoy & namasté

Deine Lena.

Online Unterricht – Iyengaryoga @home

ich unterrichte online Iyengaryoga via zoom:

immer montags und donnerstags, 

16-17:30h. 

(evtl. auch Samstag Vormittag, falls genügend Interesse besteht).


Die Stunde kostet regulär €15,-.


Am Geld soll’s aber nicht scheitern: wenn Du üben willst aber die 15,- nicht aufbringen kannst, melde Dich auch bei mir, wir finden eine Lösung!

Anmeldung unter: hello@magdalenaschmidnoerr.com

**Für alle iYoga Zeitkartenabonnent*innen, die ihr Abo aufrechterhalten haben, sowie in meinen Kursen Eingeschriebene gilt vorerst: Du übst gratis.**


**Wenn Du Zehner-, Vierer- oder Dreierkarten von iYoga hast: kannst Du regulär für €15- bei mir üben oder wir verrechnen das über die entsprechende Karte (womit Du das Studio in dieser schwierigen Zeit ein bisschen unterstützen kannst). **

Zoom ist super simple: Du meldest Dich bei mir bis eine halbe Stunde vorher an, bekommst von mir einen Link, eine Meeting ID und ein Passwort geschickt. Du folgst dem Link und führst eine exe.Datei aus (du musst nichts runterladen oder installieren, das wird einfach im Browserfenster ausgeführt), gibst die Meeting ID ein und das Passwort ein und erlaubst zoom auf Deine Kamera und Dein Mikrofon zuzugreifen.

Wenn Du nicht gefilmt werden willst, kannst Du den Zugriff auf die Kamera auch verweigern. Dann kann ich Dich nicht korrigieren, aber Du kannst mich sehen und hören und mitüben. 
Solltest Du irgendwelche (technischen oder andere) Fragen haben, melde Dich bei mir, wir bekommen das gemeinsam hint!


Ich freue mich, wenn wir gemeinsam üben. (Gib mir Rückmeldung, falls Du grundsätzlich Interesse hast, aber zu anderen Tageszeiten, dann passen wir das an!)

Herzlich
Lena. 

Selfhelp in Corona times

I’ve been getting lots of mails & texts from parents struggling with the current situation. And yes, it really is challenging. But since I am in the business of challenging humans to change, to personally grow and expand beyond the frontiers of what they previously thought possible for themselves I am a strong believer in the opportunities afforded by this crisis. If it challenges you, it can change you – and you can be the one making sure you’re changing in a favorable fashion.

Two years before our oldest daughter started school we decided to sell everything we owned, buy a little van and go traveling for at least a year. We ended up sleeping on lonely beaches for the greater part of that year, traveling through southern Europe and Northafrica. I know that sounds so romantic and has seemingly simply no context to the current situation in which we find ourselves locked into confined spaces, struggling to get home office, home schooling, cooking, household chores and certain feelings of boredom, restlessness, anger, anxiety, uncertainty, grief, worrying, fighting between kids or with a spouse in sync. But that describes exactly what we experienced during our van-life.

Here’s some of the things that we’ve figured out work really well for us. Maybe you will find some of it helpful.

1.) Make a plan. All together. Sit down as a family and roughly figure out who is used to what kind of schedule or routine and who’s gonna need what. You’ll find that the kids are used to their normal school breaks as far as hunger, movement and snack times are concerned so you might want to consider those times. Sit down on Sunday and figure out what’s gonna be for breakfast, lunch & dinner each day of the week. Everyone gets a say so that there will be everybody’s favorite on the table at some point during the week. One warm, freshly cooked meal is totally fine, rest-over lunch or dinners totally do, even simple yoghurt, fruits and vegetables sometimes. I’ll post a recipe or idea that works really well for us now and then. Also, get creative. Not only with food and recipes but with scheduling. I get that it seems a given to work schedules around home-office needs but maybe home-office hours can be pushed to meet home-schooling or other family-related needs. We’re all in this together so most likely many concall participants are struggling with the same situation and it could be helpful to bring it up and schedule virtual meetings at more unusual hours that work better for the family routine. It’s gonna take some talking and some assessing and adapting at the end of each week but as long as everyone gets to weigh in on the solution and each human’s needs are taken seriously, you’ll surely find a way. Also make sure, the kids understand what they are supposed to do at what time and why it is important that they show up for their schedule and their tasks responsibly.

2.) Develop a selfcare routine. For yourself. Figure out what will be the best “me”-time and make it happen. Maybe that means you have to get up a 5 or 6 o’clock in the morning. That’s my favorite part of the day (if the baby “lets” me get up and doesn’t feel like he has to wake up with me…). It’ll be hard the first couple of times but you will find yourself getting through the day in a much more grounded and peaceful fashion. I recommend that you find a routine that suits you like stretching and opening your body, maybe a bit of yoga, drinking some hot water or tea, journaling, writing or reading, meditating or prayer, breathing. Maybe you’ll want to go for a walk. Just something you do to take care of yourself, your body, your nerves. Here’s what I recommend you cover during me-time: Move your body for at least 30 minutes. Start a gratitude practice (write down five things you feel grateful for each day). And last but most importantly:

3.) Be intentional. Choose a word to describe the kind of person you want to be today. How do you want to feel? How do you want to interact with your loved ones? How do you want to show up as a mother, a father, a wife or husband? Write it down and then in your head imagine the day in front of you. Imagine yourself looking back at it before going to bed and see yourself being the kind of person you wanted to be. What situations could trip you up? Where could things get stressful, wild, emotional and what do you have to do to stay in that good mood, that emotional space you’ve assigned yourself? What do you need to look out for in order to show up for your family (and yourself) the way you choose to?

4.) Let boredom rule. It’s fine (and so productive) if the kids feel like they’re bored to death. Some of the greatest ideas and creations come out of that feeling. You don’t have to function as their entertainment unit – and you don’t have to grant them access to one 24/7 either. They’ve got books and crayons and paper and costumes and so on. When we were traveling we took nearly no toys with us at all. The kids played with stones and sticks and shells and sand most of the time. They made soup out of Olives they found on the ground. We build lanterns out of trash using plastic water bottles (of which there are plenty in countries like Spain or Maroc) and differently colored plastic bags (dito). During the past weeks our now much older oldest daughter decided to cut pictures and words out of magazines and make a collage about the corona virus. Our middle kid demolished all her lego planes, robots and vehicles and re-constructed something entirely new.

5.) Focus. Get crystal clear on who is in charge of what and when. Include your spouse of course and the kids and again: write it down and have the plan pinned to the fridge or somewhere else accessible for everyone. Household chores include setting and cleaning the table, preparing meals, cleaning, washing, drying, folding and putting away clothes, taking out the trash, feeding pets, watering plants – all the things that need to get done at some point. If asked what the enjoy doing the kids might surprise you! If you and your spouse don’t agree on the importance of certain chores which means one of you ends up doing them all the time just because they care more and consequently that person gets stressed out because they end up not having enough time for downtime or relaxation…- figure out the priorities: what is really important. Accept that not one way of doing things is the ultimate way – just because that’s what you feel most comfortable with. Learn to get comfortable outside your comfort zone. It probably helps to re-evaluate your priorities and learn to put your own need for some me-time first. Freezer meals are fine now and then – they can even be more fun than freshly cooked meals sometimes if that means the grown-ups are gonna be more relaxed. Does the place really have to be as clean as usually is your standard? What is more important to you: that chaos stays confined or that everyone’s happy and laughing by the end of the day? (btw: if you have older kids you might want to use this making-a-plan-business as an opportunity to teach them excel… they might enjoy that task of editing the plan into a nice-to-look-at printable version).

6.) Be patient and kind. Especially with yourself. It’s normal that it’s hard. It’s ok that everyone’s fighting.

7.) Accept the challenge. Accept that it is hard. Accept the emotions coming up inside of you. Appreciate that your spouse is going through his oder her very own sort of crisis. There are different things being triggered for everyone. Allow yourself to feel them and allow others to feel their feelings. A phrase I find really helpful is: I imagine. It helps to put yourself in someone else’s shoes and thus is such a great tool to defuse explosive emotions. Whenever a family member has a melt-down I take a deep breath and utter the words: I imagine. And then I try to see myself in their shoes and understand what the melt-down really is about and what feelings are hidden behind it.

8.) Allow yourself to trust. Allow yourself to re-imagine and remember your vision of a better future. If you get really quiet you might find a certainty, a feeling of calmness inside of you saying: we’re gonna be alright, it’s going to be fine. Our conscious understanding doesn’t cover everything, in fact, it only covers a very small percentage. There are levels within us that might have a deeper appreciation of what is going on and what about this situation is for us but we don’t usually tap into that part of us. Getting quiet might help but also: try looking for positive effects of this unusual situation. It’s not about ignoring the facts and the problems out there but allowing for a glimpse into the future and imagining what good could come out of it. For sure, the world is not going to be the same after this experience – maybe there’s quiet a few things that could actually be better than before?

8.) Cultivate failure. Hold an “oops”-meeting at or after dinner with each family member contemplating: what did we fail at today? Play Britney Spears or whatever you find appropriate and do a “we-celebrate-failing-we-love-to-fail”-dances…it’ll help lighten the load of having to do it all perfectly.

9.) Cultivate gratitude. Be grateful. Go around the dinner table asking each other what you are thankful for today. Spread the joy. Dance. Laugh. Play.

10.) Let love rule. In every which way: let love be your absolute priority. Do whatever you do with and out of love and not for any other reason. Especially: take yourself and your needs seriously and be forgiving with your so called short-comings. Remember that you love those humans that can sometimes get under your skin. Exhale when they do and ask whatever higher power you trust for help. You’ll get through it so much better if you don’t try to have it all under control and accept that there are challenging situations you don’t always know how to deal with. Staying rooted in love and connected to your breath will help you to pause a minute before reacting (to a fight or request the kids are having e.g.). Don’t let yourself get pressured into reacting. Using your breath to remind yourself these are your loved ones who deserve your love and kindness will go a long way.

I hope some of these ideas will serve you. I hope you stay healthy and happy!

Roots & Wings – mein Podcast geht live!

Heute sollte der Starttermin für meinen Podcast sein. Aufgenommen hatte ich diese Introfolge schon länger. Dann schlossen alle Betreuungseinrichtungen und unsere Welt schien täglich mehr und mehr aus der Normalität gehebelt. Daher hinke ich technisch etwas hinterher und warte auf die Freigabe von iTunes.

Dennoch will ich bei dem ursprünglichen Plan bleiben, zumal Teile dieser Introfolge gerade jetzt vielleicht für den einen oder die andere relevanter sind als ich es erahnen konnte.

Daher freue ich mich unbeschreiblich, hier mit Dir diese Folge teilen zu dürfen von Roots & Wings, dem Podcast, der Liebe und Frieden in Dein Leben bringt:

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Beschreibung

Beziehungen und Familie sind das beste Feld für persönliches und spirituelles Wachstum. Wir alle sehnen uns nach mehr Liebe, Frieden und Harmonie – in unseren Beziehungen, unseren Familien, in der Politik, in der Welt. Unsere Konflikte, Krisen, Enttäuschungen und Schmerzen sind die Wegweiser in die richtige Richtung. Denn die Reise zu mehr Liebe und Frieden beginnt immer bei uns selbst.

Hier teile ich eine Plattform für den Austausch von Erfahrungen, Tools und Methoden und führe Interviews darüber wie wir an Krise, Frust, Konflikt, Missverständnis und Enttäuschung wachsen, uns weiten und somit ungeahntes Glück freisetzen können. Wir sind eine Community von Menschen, die unterschiedlich aussehen, unterschiedlich leben, unterschiedlich lieben, unterschiedlich wählen, unterschiedlich glauben – und uns unterstützen, die beste Version unseres Selbst zu leben – für uns, für unsere Kinder, für unsere Zukunft.

Das ist Roots & Wings, der Podcast, der Liebe und Frieden in Dein Leben bringt.

Love in Time of Corona

When I was my kid’s age our school shut down.

Some had been expecting it to happen, others were hoping for the crisis to pass. We had been handed out boxes to hang around our neck (like lunchboxes) which contained our gas masks. Everyone had been given one by the government – except for the Palestinians living in the Westbank. We had decorated those brown carton boxes in art class so we could keep them apart – and because it looked pretty. We had drills. We learned how to put on and wear those masks, how to drink with them, how to seal a room stacked with cans, games, radio – and yes, toilettpaper! It had to be a room with a toilet and it had to have the capacity of fitting everyone in that particular building at any time. We were preparing for a war in Irak my parents thought would never happen.

1990: Sixthgrade me in my beloved little room in the old-city of Jerusalem

Diplomat and UN institutions were calling there staff and families back home and our class was diminishing by the hour. In the end we were six students left in sixth grade. It was already decided that we would return to Germany for good that summer so my parents refrained from sending us there as they wanted us to have a proper goodbye and last year in a place that was more home to us than anywhere else.

When one morning mid-January the radio announced schools were going to remain closed at least for a week throughout Israel my parents decided it was after all time for my mother, my sister and myself to leave the country. We got the last flight out that evening headed for Cyprus with a stop-over in Athens. While we were waiting for our connecting flight the first “episode” of the new daily show “Operation Desert Storm” was coming on the news – that was the dramaturgical production CNN chose for a reality that was hitting very close to home for us. My father had decided to stay in Jerusalem as he felt responsible for those in his congregation who lived in the country and couldn’t leave. Our dog stayed with him.

Meditating the other day, sadness instead of gratitude showed up inside. I brust into tears and only then realized that I probably was more traumatized by that experience of war and flight and extraordinary circumstance than I had grasped previously. I’ve never revisited that occurrence in that context, talked about it quite a bit, but I never thought there could be a chunk of sadness frozen up inside of my body related to this particular event.

I imagine every crisis is a chance. I imagine the outside is a mirror of the inside. I imagine we keep experiencing certain hard things over and over until we finally understand what is meant to heal, until we finally get the lesson. I have experienced that healing on all levels of body, mind and soul so many times before. Yoga has had a great impact in setting free a lot of incidents frozen into deeper layers of my body and consciousness. I have learned that love is the greatest force and simultaneously the ultimate goal in all of it. I imagine this global crisis to bear so many chances of change and love.

Airplanes are no longer taking off, working and meeting virtually and remotely is suddenly common practice, home schooling easy peasy, itineraries are being reduced to the essential, life is slowing and quieting down. Communities moving closer together and supporting each other. Most importantly: we are all in this together. We are starting to get a sense of what it feels like to fear for your family’s safety – which due to other causes such as war, draught, famine or poverty prompts so many humans to leave their homes and make their way to a hopefully better future. And still a lot of us are privileged enough to probably survive this plus the following recession without existential consequences.

Let’s remember those really threatened by this or any of the other current crisis on this planet. Let’s listen to this wake-up call. Let’s choose cooperation over competition. Let’s choose joy over news alerts. Let’s choose dancing over worrying. Let’s choose time with our kids over social media. Let’s choose yoga over stressing out. Let’s choose love over fear. But let’s also love our fear and sit with it and appreciate all that wants to pop up and be healed. Let’s start appreciating the change we are in the middle of and let’s live solidarity with those who have less. Let’s make love our guiding principle. Let’s let love rule.

When in March 1990 the 2nd Gulf War was over, we returned home. The rest of the school year was very weird. One by one families were returning but our class size stayed shrunk to 8 or 10. Our annual graduation ceremony where report cards and credits were handed out was accompanied by sirens as a reminder of this strained year (which is saying something in a country basically involved in an ongoing civil war). A few days later a school friend of mine came over for a last goodbye. Everything was packed in boxes ready to be shipped to Germany. The only item left was my portable tape recorder. We sat on those boxes listening to the Official song of the 1988 Olympics in Seoul – and crying:

See the fire in the sky
We feel the beating of our hearts together
This is our time to rise above
We know the chance is here to live forever

For all time

Hand in hand we stand

All across the land
We can make this world

A better place in which to live
Hand in hand we can
Start to understand
Breaking down the walls
That come between us for all time

So let’s! Let‘s start to understand. Let‘s stand hand in hand (virtually of course – no touching…). Let‘s continue to make this world better place in which to live! Stay healthy, happy & strong, y‘all!

The C-Craziness

So the world is panicking. No, not the world. Certain privileged parts of the world. Those who can afford to spend money on 6-months-supplies of cans, diapers, disinfection and toilet paper. It’s the people living in parts of the world where people usually die due to excessive consumptive lifestyles: eating or drinking or smoking too much, lots of stress, not moving their body enough, car accidents. These are humans used to having it all under control (except for their self-discipline) and who are being challenged and scared by the unknown, the uncertain, the uncertainty.

Let’s look at some facts, shall we? 1.24 million humans die each year in traffic accidents. Every ninth (!) human goes to bed hungry – and I don’t mean intermittent fasting. Ca. 32.000 humans are injured in traffic accidents each month in Germany alone, 181.000 Germans had influenca last flu season (which was the lowest number in a long time…). There’s numbers on murder, gang violence, war victims, draughts, etc. but you get the idea.

1.24 million deaths in traffic accidents – mostly because only 28 countries have sufficient legislation regarding seat belt safety and drinking & driving. And we’re buying up disinfection and wearing masks because of 106.000 cases of corona virus.

Yes, we don’t know how it is going to develop and go down. Yes, we do not yet have the medicine to treat those infected by it. Yes, let’s wash our hands probaly – that’s always a good idea, especially in flu season, even without the terrible “C”. Let’s cough and sneeze into our elbow bends, lets stay home when sick, let’s eat healthy, drink lots of water, let’s take long walks in the woods. But let’s stop pretending it’s the apocalypse – finally!

Because that’s the sense I’m getting – we’ve collectively been waiting for the world as we know it to end for quite some time now, maybe ever since the millennium, then again since 9/11, then came the end of the world as proclaimed by the Mayas in 2012, all those terrorist attacks and it never being a question of if but rather when, then Trump was elected president and the revival of us-first, nationalist, anti-global, anti-feminist, anti-diversity patriarchies around the globe – and we were sure, our lives would never be the same.

Well, let’s face it: Yes, we are in the middle of incredible change. The world as we know it IS coming to an end. But it’s not about Corona, it’s not about stupid, egocentric, narcissistic leaders, it’s not about the terror or challenges we face from the outside. It’s about understanding the connection between the outside and the within. It’s about what is within each and every one of us. It’s about embracing our own fears, recognizing them, sitting with them instead of running away from them, shutting them up, drowning them or splitting them off as no longer being a part of our true selves. It’s about seeing the polution within ourselves, the overheating climate inside us. It’s about allowing ourselves to listen to and follow our hearts over our head. It’s about learning that as a warrior your hair may blow in the wind of change but your heart will always beat quietly, rooted firmly as it is in love. It’s about recognizing and understanding the power of inner peace. (Also, breathing and meditation will help you stay calm, focused and smart in otherwise panicked or troubled times). It is from that place within that we will be able to face all the change outside and get to work adequately. Because there is a lot to do!

We love to believe we’re in control. We like to think we know it all. But we don’t really ever. Our grasp of what we call “reality” is very limited. We feel entitled to declare certain aspects, events, people etc. as “good” or “bad” but history has always had a way of happening in waves, in ups and downs, in parallel movement of contrary development. “Good” and “bad” are both pols of one reality – and there are tons of shades of grey.

Yes, these are troubled times – but they always are. I sincerely hope, you are reading this and are healthy and happy or at least full of hope. I pray for you if that is not the case and you are fighting a severe illness or fever or hunger or trauma and my deepest gratitude goes out to all those in the trenches, on boarders, in camps, in hospitals, homes and labs fighting injustice, inhumanity, cruelty, poverty, sickness. Let’s do whatever we can to (e.g. financially) support those in the front rows.

The least the rest of us can do meanwhile is stay calm, breathe, meditate, stay committed to our yoga practice or at least moving our body every day, drink all the water, eat healthy, be sensible. And model for our kids how to live in a world with never-ending news alerts and alarming messages in (social) media channels, how to brace ourselves, how to protect ourselves and them from overheated emotions and actions going viral, how to get the facts right, how to make good decisions and habits such as washing hands & staying home when sick.

And let’s spend some time to understand why we’re loving the panic, why we’re buying into the notion of the apocalypse so readily, how this fear has been a part of us for so long, why it seems to come so naturally. Maybe there’s something meant to heal there. Maybe even globally.

I’d love for the world to take a deep breath, breathe through any and all resistance and let go while exhaling slowly.

Wonder what that would feel like!

Von Schmerz und Licht

Und dann ist da der Schmerz. Und über Schmerz schreiben ist schwer.

Da ist immer Widerstand wo Schmerz ist. Widerstand, nicht all zu genau hinzuschauen. Widerstand aus dem Wunsch heraus, den Schmerz nicht so schlimm zu spüren, nicht so schwer zu schleppen. Widerwille, all zu viel Licht ins Dunkel zu bringen, denn was da zum Vorschein kommt in den hinteren Ecken und wie gruselig und erschreckend und bedrohlich das sein mag – wer weiß…

Und dann gibt es keinen Weg daran vorbei. Denn wer ins Licht drängt wird immer mehr dunkle Ecken damit durchdringen und wer leuchtet wirft Schatten und letztlich steckt in unserem Schmerz all die Erlösung, nach der wir uns sehnen.

Foto: Boris Schmid Noerr @allaboutyourfather

Aber es braucht Übung, Geduld und Mut, in diesem Schmerz zu verharren ohne an ihm festzuhalten, ohne ihn zu dramatisieren, ihn emotional auf einen Thron zu heben und in Selbstmitleid zu versinken. Im Innen zu bleiben statt ihn nach außen (und auf alle anderen) zu projezieren. Es braucht Disziplin da zu bleiben und bei sich und weich zu werden in diesem Widerstand. Je größer der Widerstand desto weicher. Und je größer der Widerstand desto süßer der Gewinn. Doch das kann und darf nie das Ziel sein – und wird es auch nicht denn wer wirklich in diesem Schmerz steckt spürt gerade ohnehin nur diesen und jeder Versuch ihn zu verkürzen verlängert ihn nur.

Wie in einer Asana, die Dir unendlich schwer fällt und Du nur darauf wartest, dass sie “endlich” “aufhört”. Du wirst ohne Profit jeden einzelnen Moment lang leiden, den Du in ihr verweilen “musst”. Lernst Du aber, Dich ausatmend, loslassen, weich der Haltung hinzugeben, erlaubst Du Deinem Körper, diese Haltung zu werden, sie zu durchdringen, sie mit jeder Faser Deines Seins zu sein auch wenn ganz vieles in Dir dagegen ankämpft und scheinbar “nie” diese Haltung wird sein können, diese Unvollkommenheit zu akzeptieren und dennoch zu bleiben, zu verharren, in jedem einzelnen Moment zu leben – wird sie Dir eine Wohltat sein und meditativ und transformierend. Doch solange Du an ihr festhältst und an dem Schmerz, die es Dir scheinbar oder offensichtlich verursacht, diese Haltung einzunehmen, da “ich nun mal so bin wie ich bin” wirst Du leiden – unter Umständen Dein Leben lang.

Der Schmerz ist nie eindeutig und es ist nie leicht ihn zu akzeptieren, zu durchdringen, zu erleben, zu spüren und sich ihm vertrauend hinzugeben. Aber es gibt ein Hinter-dem-Schmerz, ein Weichwerden im Widerstand, es gibt dieses Schmelzen im Schmerz, die Erlösung. Es ist ein Kribbeln, das den ganzen Körper heimsucht als würden Milliarden von leuchtenden Elektronen durch Deine Blutbahn vibrieren. Es ist ein Schweben und ein sich auflösen und neu zusammensetzen und es ist all das nicht und auch nicht das. Es ist unbeschreiblich und immer ist es das Hingucken wert. Denn die Kraft, die eingeschlossen ist in den Schmerz ist so mächtig und so transformierend und so umfassend.

Wie alles hier: braucht es Übung. Jeden Tag ein bisschen. Übe die Ruhe mit Dir selber, das Bleiben, das Spüren, das Wahrnehmen ohne zu werten. Sei dankbar für Deinen Schmerz, für den Widerstand, für all die Herausforderungen und lerne mehr und mehr nachzugeben und weich zu werden in den Schmerz hinein. Du wächst daran, auch wenn es schwer ist. Und es ist manchmal schwer und manchmal oft. Aber es lohnt sich. Immer.

Enjoy & let the magic happen.

Namasté Eure Lena.